Where’s the fire? : Of being a klutz scorn.

Sungguhla. Penat aku nak menerangkan kepada org2 yang tak brape nak enlighten ni kan?

Aku da habaq da yang aku tak suke org2 yang ske nak condemn interest other people.
Aku da bgtaw da. Mengapa harus menguji tingkat ke-patient-an aku.

Apelah masalahnyer kalau makhluk2 Allah yang lain minat Syed Muzaffar ke minat Siti ke.. suke kawan ngn Chinese ke.. Indian ke? Suke makan mee goreng mamak tak nak mamak ke.. tak suke makan nasik ker, suke makan ayam, suke main softball.. suke what-ever-yg-de ske ? Suke lelaki gelap ke terang ke , suam-suam kuku ke?

Persoalannya : Mengapa harus censure people ?

What la ur prob wit them actually. Lantak pi kat depa la.. hang dok sebok kacau kain org.. hang p tengok sat dekat kain hang. Elok sangat ka? Bersih sangat ka? Tak dak wahima apa2 taik skali pon ka yg singgah? More or less.. mesti ade debu2 gak kan?

Tidak perlu macam bagus kerana anda tidak pon.

Critisizing people or talking ill behind people is just a cheap and dishonest way to praise urself. Shame on you !

Ni la org2 manusia yang canang diri cam aci bagus sgt tapi tin kosong - omong kosong.
Hidup nak condemn people. Critic people as if u r some kind murni hearted. Please people. Stop being such a jerk. I had enuf. The world had enuf.

Journal – a brief timeline of one whole year ..ermm..almost (-_,-!)

its December.. time do fly b4 we realized..aite? make me questined .. what had i done tis past year.. other then increasing knowledge thru study and all.. then? what had i achieved?

hurm. point form shud be ok..

1. January 2008 - big time doing my fyp . everything is going smooth .. the pisang is good.. the culture doing great.. but the attitude of the peeps around me kinda disturbing.. but.. hey okey! still manageable . Everything is in hand.

2. March 2008 - still didnt get the result for my Fusarium Screening. and The Akak is messing with me - again. Damn la tis Akak . shes starting to get into my nerve. Do hand-in the result please . selagi aku boleh ckp elok-elok ni baik kau jgn buat perangai. jgn sampai aku kurang ajar .

3. April 2008 – Kakak itu mmg sepatutnya dibuang di dalam longkang ! Kemudian run with filthy drainage sewage and air longkang yang sebusuk hatinya. Huh~~!! . Lusa presentation, baru nak bagi result. Result part aku dah sebat awal-awal.. Tang nak buat system barter, pandai nak buat perangai. And expect me to be so decent. In YOUR DREAM la akak . But Alhamdulilah . Praise to Allah the He had given me big help..walaupun selama dua malam aku tido bagai tak cukup jam.. Imagine , had to set my alarm every 1 hour in-case aku tertidur or overslept. Tak cukup tangan aku nak analyzed those results ..put some discussions and conclusion altogether within less than 48 hours. Mak aih! But eventually my presentation went well, tho..;) Nice end of semester.

4. May, 2008 – had to attend sem khas class for Plant Morphogenesis . Cam poyo ber’busy-busy’an study satu subject . pastu tak de mende nak buat. Boring gile ! bukan nak cakap ape la.. tapi mmg hustler gile aku.. ye arr kalau da abes jer kelas , aku dah revise subject tub lime nam kali. Pergh . Hah! Nak cakap gak.. dan pindah rumah . Am now officially living off-campus! Hah;D

5. June 2008 – Still in sem khas and Starting to mingle in with FESKUM 08’ . Its Festival Konvokesyen University Malaya 08’ act as the Director for the Opening Ceremony for FESKUM 08’ . Initially, it’s a helping-a-friend offer.. get into my teammates and start working . All seven of us ONLY..okey..mind you! Its me , Syakirah the Stage manager and Dep. Director , Yana the Sec , Yan the Tresurer , Anis the Protocol plus the Floor Manager , Aisyah , in-charged for the Food and the Gift, Yeni the Publicity .
Person to Entertain : YTAM Raja Dr Nazrin Shah Ibni Sultan Azlan Shah dan isteri . Amek kau !

6. July 2008 – Permulaan semester baru . ha-ha budak 4th year. Still in Feskum mood . still struggling with FESKUM with Pn Sabariah the Timbalan pendaftar bahagian Canselari , En Apandi Khalib , timbalan pendaftar HEP , prof Madya Azraie hj Idris , TNC HEP dan Edy the FEskum Director . every two days nak bagi repot.. cam apetah.. ble nak bwat kejenyer kalu asyik bagi repot memanjang. Cam….apetah!

7. August 2008 – FESKUM 08’ bermula dan berakhir. Am now off- hook on this .Learn a lot as I can say . I am handling big things with the big people la kan? Byk aku blaja weh. From Pn Sabariah, From my teammates. Thanks to all especially the SiX-teammates. You guys have been so great and we become good friend in the end. Not to forget, ade kawan2 aku yang grad gak nih.. feeling empty gakla ble tgk kwn2 xde. Tapi Hidup itu perlu diteruskan bukan? Setiap orang mempunyai cerita hidup yang berbeza .

8. Sept 2008 - Starting to enjoy kelas elektif aku – Audit Alam Sekitar . (ni subjek bdk enviro, aku amek sebab aku tatau nak amek subjek ape lagi..out of option.. kitorg 4 org jer bdk biotech..hah;D ) Sincerely like this class. The lecturer , the student and the class’s weather. The lect was joyful and kenal sebijik2 bdk2 de.. cam manifestating-kan ke-close-an mereka. Best. The student mmg close la..meriah kelas tuh. Bes bes.Something that budak-budak biotech tak de. We are all..usually very stiff in class.. as like we all kinda concentrating la konon… padahal tak paham lecturer bebel ape tah.. tapi buat-buat paham . aduh ! kronik sungguh kelas aku rupenye.

9. November 2008 – exam fever alrite . going smooth Alhmdulilah . Hope the end result is not so disappointing, tho. Hurm.. Niat hati nak cari keje parttime sementara sem break. Biley arr tong-tong duit poket sem depan . pegi walk-in interview dekat Old Town White Coffee ..cam bes jer.. tapi de kate.. nanti de call.. so, we wait just to find that he never called in the end.. Pale otak ko Eric. Pastu untuk menyejukkan hati, aku ngn Yai ( de juga pg intrevw dgn sy ) kitorg rs kiorg terlalu hebat untuk keje kat situ . sebab ;

a.Time intrvw , Eric tue ckp melayu, kitorg bantai ckp omputih. Konon nk tunjuk we are good with it. Haha . Kami berlagak .
b.Kat application form , ktorg boh sume cgpa- cgpa dari sekolah menegah sampai university ngn matrix2 result yang hebat-hebat tuh sume, So, ktrog rs, kitorg ni cam a treat to him, sbb die sekadar SPM jer.. takot nt bru sebulan keje kitorg dinaikan pangkat ganti de ke.. cam tu.. hihi..hurm.. ( 0_0!)
c.Kitorg tak panggil de Mr. Eric, kitorg panggil de ‘ERIC’ jer.. haha ! blagak . blagak . ;D..

10. December 2008 – baru lepas bbrp hari . cume nex week umat islam akan menyambut Hari Raya aidil Adha.
SELAMAT HARI RAYA !

P/s : Setahun telah berlalu ( ataupun, hampir berlalu..) dan aku semakin matang . 3 event penting dalam hidup aku sepnjang aku berada dalam tahun 2008 iaitu

1. My Final Year Project : The Development of Wild Type Banana Calcutta 4 Seed Progenies via Embryo Rescue Technique for Fusarium Screening .


2. FESKUM 08’

3. Kelas Environmental Audit

Dan aku berharap, semuanya akan berjalan lancer juga tahun hadapan, kerana aku akan mula JOB Hunting ~~! Gambate, kudasa-I ~~! Neh…??!

Morsel from the heart : Takdir keindahan sebuah ujian

Hidup ini indah jika kita mentakdirkan keindahnya. Tiada apa yang mustahil selagi usaha masih digenggaman. Tuhan tidak zalim dan tidak akan pernah menzalimi hambaNya. Allah adil dari segenap segi. Jika usaha yang dijalankan tidak mendatangkan hasil yang diinginkan, percayalah ia bukan tiada tapi belum masanya lagi. Akan tiba suatu hari, kamu rasai indahnya sebuah ujian . Tiap sesuatu jalan yang Allah takdirkan untuk kita adalah yang terbaik. Selalunya yang terbaik, tidak pernah tidak. Jika kita telah berusaha dan jalannya buntu di hujung, Tadahkan tangan minta pada Allah jalan penyelesaiannya. Pada Allah ada semua jawapan bagi setiap ujian yang menimpa. Pentingnya hati untuk berfikiran positif. Tananglah kamu wahai jiwa jika mengingati Allah.

by , shazwanisudirman

lovely complex~~!! a complex love story anime.. ahaks! now im talking..

Koizumi - san and Otani- san

hurmm.actually kinda in hurry bcoz i only hv anothr 15 minutes to crapp on tis anime ( b4 the library is closed) wic is sole-ly my current material to kill time sementara nak tgu hari ahad nak balek rumah. Jgn tanye kenape saya tak balek awal lagi. tanye Mr Eric the manager of the Old Town White Coffee yang bapak jeles dengan kehebatan aku dan yai hingga tidak mahu bagi kami keja disitu.

huh~~!

penat.

baik. begini. let me put in in point form la yeh..

koz bebel-ing all the way kinda make me sick ko read the wording in endless lines :

. pasal tis two kawan koizumi n otani yg selalu la gadoh dalam kelas . Lame? . Find. Admit .mereka ini cam comical duo for the class la..to show that they're acually rapat.

. at first they promise each other to carikan bf / gf untuk each othr bcoz koizumi is too tall to find the right guy and otani adalah too short to find the rite girl.

.end up koizumi ske plak pade otani

.but then otani cam reluctant. Ble haruka tanye de cakap " kalo ko tny aku aku ske de atau benci de, aku akn jawab mestilah aku ske de , tapi aku da kawan dengan de lame sangat untuk tukar perassan ini jadi cinta . nak jadikan de gf aku adalah satu benda yang sukar "

.its kinda a big rejecting gk la to koizumi

.tapi nk jd cte, otani xbley plak idop tanpa koizumi, in-a-way. Nice .

hurmm.. love sure is complex aite?

haha;P

neway, my point form, cam xserupe point form gak akhirnyer. tp xcam esei gak.. haha!

walaubagaimanapon, cte ini memang bapak bes and sooooo sswwweeeeeetttt .

had big laugh and big time crying gak. haha ;P

malu~~

and am sure glad that ive kill my time wacthing this.

makes me Happy!

of being a klutz !

im a fool to get easily being fooled by the fools.

enough said.

"wani, ko ni ske ade bad 1st impression kat people" kata taty

no im not..!!
defensively...i refused that idea of me..
mungkin benar jika kamu ambil kira satu part, tapi serius tidak.
saya bukan begitu.
( sekali lagi.. tone defensive )

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tadi aku ngn taty r having our makan ptg dekat kafe fak sc yang da tak sedap tu selepas 4 jam bertapa dlm library yang gle sejok!

kami makan : laksa johor yang dibuat oleh Sue ( thanx sue ! sedap... * whink whink* nak lagi..) siap hantarkan lagi..
kami minum : sebungkus teh ais dan segelas fresh orange..

then die nampak ade classmate class bdk master die, from african country.. lupe yang mane.. then tetibe ade satu soalan yang cam berlegar2 kat pale otakku yg penoh dgn ilmu postharvest ni kan .. ( haha as if..! ).. soalan yang saya setuju la sikit kurang diajar.. namun saya serius mahu tanya.. lgpun sy bukannya tanya dekat empunya diri..

" taty , kalo malam, ko nampak tak die? "

"wani !!" taty exclaim . dengan muke question mark beserta garis2 bengang.

"no, im serius nih.." dengan double-jerk eye dan muka yg sangat determined.

"nampaklah! ko nie.. "

aku bukan tanye sebab ade niat lain.. memang serius nak tanye bcoz people always make fun of them..

thats is sooo not a bad 1st impression. aku bukan kutuk die.. aku tanye jer.. salah?

i hv never judge people from my first impression bcoz i knew 90% of it is wrong. But some times i do trust my bad feeling towards people. if aku tetibe rase tak sedap hati dgn somebody tuh.. i'll b extra carefull.. tapi tak la obviuos kan? bcoz im afraid i'll end up wrong.

one thing that is obviuos tat i noticed bout' me.. i dont judge people according to their attire . tak semestinya mereka yg bertudung laboh , elok budi bicaranya dan tidak juga org yang rambut percuma itu buruk akhlaknya . for me external look just a skin deep. Dalam mesti mu kira dlu baru bley bwat konklusi on people.

and i do hate people yg tak suke orang tak semena-mena . kenal org tu pon tak.. tetiba xsuke. pelik.
tapi sungguh wujud org seperti itu.
baru dgr cakap2 org, sudah bwat konklusi. jgnlah begitu . mereka kenal die cara lain. kamu kenal die cara lain. mungkin ade ceritanya yg kamu tidak tahu.
kalo die takde hal dengan kamu, kenapa perlu kamu ade hal dengan die. betul?

la suzo ( jgn beranggapan buruk ) , hati pun tenang.
nvrtheless...
apa yang penting ?! ( conotation mengikut theme song 'Wonder pet' )
kita jaga diri sendiri dan sentiasa berdoa kepada Allah agar orang2 sekeliling kita akan sentiasa tenang and senang bila menengok muke kita walaupun huduh !

haha;D
till then.

bila penonton filem yg tidak tahu apa2..mengkomen artwork pegarah2 mashsyur..

entry ini adalah inspired upon yasmin ahmad entry entitled ( dibawah) yang saya telah baca

"Artists today think of everything they do as a work of art. It is important to forget about what you are doing - then a work of art may happen."

a while ago . Come to thnk of it..i just cud'nt agreed more. i oso take the trouble to pin-up a comment . I wrote this ;

" over the years.. i was wondering.. what is the 'thing' lacking in our films when in compared to the ez to say outside movies.. save the high cgi.. sc fic watsoever.. myb they will say it is not fair to compared with othr films when it come to that part.. i agree..in a way.. but producing a good film..doesnt really encounter or revolve around film techno sahaja..take iran and german's film for eg. they hv always produced a good film.. with totally no techno or what what.. the very important thing is THE STORY ! itu aje.. if people can understand tis.. our movies will definitely go around the world.. bukan sekadar melepaskan batuk ditangga dan berbangga.. "

honestly , that is what i thnk.. i am so not a good film dealer let alone a film critics.. as i hv flat zero about any thng of it.. nor that i know how to produce film or atleast the soul theory of the film itself. But nothing than the obvious to see.. that everytime the outside film being primiered in our local cinemas , the number one in chart is usually not ours.

seriously, is malaysian movies that bad?

standing ovation hv been given to Puteri Guung Ledang. why cant we repeat ? is it production cost? is that it? no iranian movies seems to be consuming lots of money? but they movies always stands up in film festivals.

Filem adalah ilham adalah karya , adalah seni emosi yag diadaptasi melalui visual. Kesan visual mesti ada, namun emosi juga perlu sampai dan mesej perlu jelas untuk dijadikan teladan atau sempadan.

ia bukan sekadar "ini peruk nasi kami, maka kami perlu ber'karya' supaya kami dapat makan " .

adakah suatu karya yg berladaskan komitmen 'periuk nasi' layak dilabel karya?

if thats the story, art wont b an art anymore. its a komitmen bekerja seperti pekerja-pekerja akauntan membuat audit syarkat. seperti pelukis pelan yang mempunyai dateline atau seperti doktor yg merawat pesakit kerana adalah fardu kifayah dan tanggungjawab sosial selain mereka dibayar untuk itu.

ada seorang senior dalam bdang perfileman pernah berkata " budak-budak sekarang ada cerita tapi tidak tahu bercerita "

again i just cudn't agreed more.

lots of pengarah buat cerita supaya kerja mereka boleh dijual atau boleh diterima masyarakat . rakyat malaysia tidak suka cerita berat. tidak suka cerita perlu fikir-fikir.. suka cerita romantik komedi, kelakar dan action pack. Nah ! itu kuncinya . tapi kami tidak dapat melihat . di mana? dimana movie2 tersebut. ada segelintir yang berjaya menonjol. yang lain?

kita bercakap tentang karya bertaraf filem . FILEM adalah cereka ( lbh kurang ) dua jam yang ditayangkan dimana penonton perlu membayar RM10 untuk menontonnya. Bukan drama melayu yang boleh ditonton secara percuma di tv1 , tv 2 , tv 3 atau etc. Bila perlu bayar , penonton jadi berkira dan tiba2 seluruh rakyat malaysia sudah pandai menjadi pengkritik filem bila filem yg ditayagkan tidak memuaska hati.

seperti sebuah cerita romentik komedi mengenai kawen paksa ( tajok x boleh disebut, takot pula menyinggung ..wpon sy tau sy telahpn mgkin menyinggung ) , idenya bagus , tp bila mnjd adaptasi filem, keciwa , levelnya tidak sampai 'panggung'. layaknya drama sja. lagi baik drama Joe dan Faridah di astro, raya lalu. Ataupun dalam line cerita yg sama cerita Miftahul Jamilah, lebih baik.

kalopn mahu ber'action-pack'.. mahu ber-drift lagak gaya.. jangan sampai lupa 'ceritanya' . jangan sampai org kata " ini cite kete.. bosan !"

kalau mahu membuat lawak, biar bijak dan bermesej..bukan slapstik. lawak kurang bijak bisa menimbulkan marah dan menyampah. dan jangan marah dilabel sampah.

komentor saya mungkin kurang bijak ataupon biadap. tapi itu yang saya rasa sebagai penonton yag tidak tahu apa-apa. saya hanya menonton filem kerana ingin release tesion atau sekadar membuag masa. jangan risau kebanyakkan rakyat malaysia pasti ak menonton juga, kerana mungkin semagat kekitaan yag masih ada.. tapi sedikit teguran ini supaya kalian tahu yg kami juga menyumbang kepada transaksi filem malaysia. dan kami tahu apa yg kami ingin toton dan lihat.

disini saya ada beberapa nama, di mana karya mereka layak dipaggil karya dan telahpun diiktiraf . mugkin boleh belajar sesuatu?

yasmin ahmad ( film ) - kuatnya pada mesej yg ingin disampaikan. kalau tidak, masakan setiap kali ikaln-iklannya saja keluar, bisa mengiggalkan kesan di hati penonton. itu baru iklan.

mira mustafa ( scriptwriter ) - daya imiginasi dan skrip yg ampuh ( kuat maksud sy). drama bersiri kekasihku seru sepatutya dibuat filem . ada kualiti ke-tidak-boleh-jangkaannya yg kurang ada pd filem2 melayu nowadays.

shahrulezad ( drama ) - 1st time drama bersiri ( Sin,der,&ella ) melebihi rating Buletin utama. Enough said . Self-explainatory .

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im just being provocative..does it hurt u dat much?

aduh!
saya selalu terlupa yang manusia mempuyai tahap
sensitiviti yang berbeza..
...
saya telah men-komen satu entry blog kawan saya and guess what?
dia terasa..mungkin..
kerana dia telah meng-edit entry trsebut..

aduh!
i feel the guilt!
dam la u..
bwat sy rase camni..
saya tak suka rasa serba-bersalah..

i am not condemning ur tods..
mana mungkin..
semua pendapat adalah betul, baik?
i just give you reasons to elaborate more..

but then,
wut else to b said..'
saya menyebbkan kamu offended dgn provokatif ide sy yg off-handed tuh kan?
maka, saya minta maaf..

From the Side Box : A Clarification..

living in the bottle..

look nice and kemas..and n in peace.. with all the luxuries and security.. lots of food and adequate mineral.. enough vitamin protection.. sealed capped.. overly protected from vector or pathogen invasion..but still..when we plant it in the soil..or termed ' hardening'..the plant die..
its not a merely theory tho..it is in one of my discussion that i did for my fyp..
it sure-ly not just an academica theory that fill up my thesis pages.. but the impact manifest the life itself..







life is not straight forward.. (wordings from my bioproses lecturer Dr sufian..that captivated me so much.. that seriously disturbing my tod for quite a tyme..definite-ly until today)
life as it is..is not a plain theory of one plus one equals to two..
people need experience.. espeacially bad one to grow.. people usually grow faster from defeat rather that victory..







people need challenges in life so that they can be tough in heart and in mind..







people need to rasa susah, so that they can be gratefull..







people need problems in life to be solve so that they can think..







and Allah knew better..as He is ALL-Known..







so save ur whining and sulking and keeping hatred and grief..ia percuma aja..tidak akan






membawa anda ke mana-mana..







Problems are made to be Solved..







and thats the truth !

waktukah yang bersalah..sedangkan kita adalah pencuri..

wud it b good if the time stop ticking? if the world stop turning around..
and we remain in a static mode.. do we really need that as like soooo many people.. always wishing tat..

" kan bes kalo waktu behenti..bley aku siapkan assgmnt ni.."

or

"kan bes kalo waktu behenti.. aku ad mase nk bc buku lebih.."

with the xm like few days more... i can bet that many people will say prayers like tis like a zillion tyme..seperti ku jua..

namun, begitu..mengapa harus kita meghukum waktu?
kita yang menjadi pencuri masa..
menangguhkan sesuatu yg sepatutnya dibuat sejak awal lagi..
mengapa perlu kita berdoa agar waktu behenti..

pembangunan negara yg terjejas adalah satu isu lain..
bagaimana dgn pembangunan integriti diri..
awak yg mempunyai poor time management n yet u r sooo dam to blame it on time..

waktu kah yg bersalah.. atau kita?

my bad !

my last post ade cte pasal itu peach cobbler kan?

namun, to my stupidity..
saya luper mahu letak itu peach cob punya..
what-the-the-is peach cobbler..

so gmbr itu lah itu peach cob..
yg umi bwat tak de la se lumpcious itu..
but ok la camtu gak rupenyer..
aku bknnyer kesah sgt rupe btk de..
im craving for the taste..
and it taste just great..!
heh;D

so..for more.. just google it key..

blessing earthingerss...
xoxo..

A slice of peach cobbler..a lifetime-borne relationship..

Aku bru online YM aku that nite, tetibe aku di ‘buzz’ oleh umi.. ( ke..aku yg buzz umi..tp camtu la. kami saling buzz-membuzz la..senang cte..)

We have some how-are-you kinda chat for a moment there and how she is in the baking mood sementare nak tunggu intern tis coming 3rd Nov..( where at tat time..im having my finale.. wish me luck ya?)

Suddenly ak teringt plak ade one desert ni yang aku da lame cari and gle mengidam nak makan ; Peach Cobbler ..tp aku tak pernah jumpe pon kat malaysia nih.. ( of coz..mayb aku jer kowt yg tak penah jumpe ..heh;D) Aku ‘jumpe’ tis dish time tgh gle layan hlovate in one of her enovel..5 tahun5 bulan kot.. e-novel.. sbb time tuh novel de tak publish lagih.. latest one yg da publish hurmm..*thinking*.. Tunas rasenyer.. prequel for aA=bB..

oppss..ok..back on track..

ini adalah apa yg berlaku … ( almost la..not really exactly ..of coz..kejadah sgt aku nak ingt sebijik2 ape yg ktrg chat ari tuh..gila apa! heee ;D )

wani_sudirman : umi..nak request
: sementara ko tg dlm mood nak masak2 ni kan..
: ade satu desert ni..
: da lame mengidam
umigotmail : mengidam pulak
:ape die
wani_sudirman : peach cobbler
: taw tak?

*there are some silent moment for a while.. but I wait..

umigotmail : td da tgk
: senang jer kot..
wani_sudirman : umi boley buat ke?
umigotmail : boley kot..
wani_sudirman : yeay!!
umigotmail : bahan-bahan asas sume ade
: tapi peach tu..
wani_sudirman : takpe..peach tu aku sponsor..
: aku nak rase jer..
: dapat one slice je pon ok..
umigotmail : takpe.. ak amek one slice jer
: yg lain baik kamu makan bersama teman2

then, we have few chat some more, b4 we exit, becoz i got somethng to do kot.. cam tu la..but then, after that..aku tak la cam berharap sgt yang die akn buat dalam waktu terdekat nie..but then yesterday’s evening I got a text msg from umi..


Waniey! peach cobbler ko aku da bwat..
igt nak bg ptg tadi..
tp kol tak angkat pn..


( Dari tuan punya blog : yesterday aku gile bz bwat preparation untuk presentation environmental audit..so aku accidently ter’ignore my fon.. sampai xsedar ape2..even I don’t evn notice yg my fon b3r dah syahid..hee ;)….my apology to umi and for tos yg juga ade berusaha untok menghubungi sy..namun gagal..)

Gosh! I was like..serious ke umi ni.. hasrat hati yg reply text umi terbantut apebila msg is not sent..mengapa.?.kerana kredit sy jugak syahid..aduh! tis is terrible la..adoiiyy!
saya mendekati kinah..dengan mata berkaca penuh pengharapan..

”kinah..nak satu kdt..nk reply msg member..”

so wit kinah’s courtesy..

ala..camne umi.
aku kat rumah ni..
kalo kat um bley jugak aku amek..

then, die kate..hurm xingt plak..tp ad la somethng bout..’ dah buat nih..rugi tak hantar…— kot…’ tapi dicantaskan ceritanya.. umi said shes willing to hantar.. I was like.. biaq benar mak cik nih..dah malam nih..its nearly 9 pm already..tapi die nak anta gak..so okelah..nak hantar..hantar la..with another few msg-es of direction kami pon janji nak jumpe that nite..( so, ok.. I confess aku x la gne fon kinah ntok I msg shj..thanx kinah!! - *tersenyum simpul* )

About.. 910..915 camtu umi sampai.. kami ( aku, kinah..su n yanti..) time tu tgh dok membuang masa untuk makan – borak – minum – melepak di BAQIYAT.. mamak restaurant yg punya air milo ais yg membunuh! pekat gle..seriouly kalo minum tiap hari ad chance kne diabetes..tp sedap..sbb milo de ad letak coco sket..such a plesure at time..tp xbley selalu minum la..eh?

to kill time sementara nak balik nengok kekasihku seru.. aku pon belanja la cik umi minum2..kami borka2 kosong sambil menikmati pleasure makan peach cob yg umi buat dan bawak.. ( umi bg satu slice jer n for free..sbb de kate..de dah sentap dlu ngn family de..hurmmm..aku xkesah p0wn..cam aku ckp td aku just nak rase..serious sedap..cam ni rupenyer rasenyer si cobbler nih..)

nearly 930..umi sent us home.. then ak ajak de lepak jap.. die p0n akte oke..kami p0wn sambung borak2..semula.. tis time ade la pasal family affair sket2..pasal her nephew yg da boley ckp melayu smenjk bertadika melayu..

“ Arif da banyak toys.. tengok-tengok aje…” he said.. haha..so adorable-ly cute !

Right 1030pm umi mintak diri..sbb her mom tgl sorg kat umah… with a few berbalas-balas bye-bye and take care umi bertolak pulang..

sebaik saje kereta umi hilang dari pandangan saya.. there is tis feeling rushing over me..im overwhelming-ly touched.. just because a slice peach cobbler.. she is willing to baked it for me and even send it purposely to me just becoz aku da lame mengidam nak makan.. boley jer laen2 kali kan? so boley bayang tak bagaimana kalo sy btol2 in need of her favour.. mintak tolong kat de.. she WILL be by my side la kan..? theoritically … literally..and technically..yes! im sole-ly sure bout it.. ( of coz kalo tak de aral melintang..la.. but she will be there..for me..)

that nite.. I realized how precious my friendship is with my friend/s..how lucky I am to have them as my frens..bcoz some people r searching their whole life to hv frens like them.. that I need to treasure them as how they’re treasuring me..

Suddenly tis has become not just a slice of peach cobbler.. it manifest more than that.. it define our friendship..

to umi : thanx ya.. for the peach cobbler..
tho..ko bising pasal cobbler ko tu masin sikit la..ape la..
tp bg aku ttp sedap..
sbb…
ko yang buat !!

The story of the chaotically hectic , House of 27!

Gotcha! ill know u’ll be reading this !! korang memang sebok taw! Sengaje jer nak bc segment2 aku nak mintak ampon kat korg. Evntho aku dah bg kad raye, tapi tah camne I feel like nak blog-kan jugak.. cam invoice la.. nnt resit yg meyatakan korg ampunkan aku tuh, aku claim later.. keh?

So, for this entry, its specially dedicated to my dearest the 13 angel of rumah nombor 27, jalan pantai murni 3.. okeh? ! Korang, SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF LUAR DAN DALAM..zahir dan batin.. batin dan haq!

Sebok!

Berdiri di belakang (l tp r )

Is the Pet scholar anak cina mata sepet cik Nodo Nordin, - Nods, sorry untuk segala tindak-tanduk , tindakan sy yg tidak bertanduk okey?! Tiada niat jahat cuma sekadar bayangan gurauan. Thanx kerana memperkenalkan sy dengan one tree hill, we shared it together eh?! Ko da kaye nt, dapat bonus 10 bulan from Pet ko jgn abaikan nafkah ko kt akue keh?! ;D pastu kalo ko dpt jd bini menteri (oppss~!), sponsor aku pg haji eh?! Haha;D

The mata besar bulu mate lentik nak mampos, the bos of the house, Cik Iejah Azizah – Oh, Jijah ! anda dan sy mempunyai kegemarna yg sama, dan kita baru menyedarinya 2 hari yg lalu. Well, better late dan never.. nt aku bwk lg buku harun yahya ntok ko.. nt ko cte lg pasal Ustaz Asri tu yerk.. ! ps: oktaf level gelak ketawa kite p0wn da same aku rs.. dan bole kasi gegar satu hill park tuh! Haha;)

The one and only Mek Klate yg vogue , cik Ismiha Is Ibrahim– huk-oloh mek, aku nih do gheti nak goyak banyok2 dale bahso klate nih, mu suko dok bg ke? Mu suko ghoyak aku kecek mace sie.. naseb mu saing aku,. Mako today, hee.. I don’t undertang la.. today, aku nak ghoyak selamat hari rayo kat mu, map deh?! Ps: Mek, mu cari la cto Yamapi yg baru tuh, later kita tgk same2, deh?!

Disebelahnya Cik Taqi taqinoat Taqinah Kinah, the high cheek bone parit buntaq taiko. awat, cheq?! Apa dok tak kena la ni? Heish.. loklaq la hang nie.. aku habaq mai kemarin hang dok ketegak..haa..la ni lagu mana? Lagu raya dah tak boleh putaq lagi la ni ..sat g masuk parit buntaq pulak! La ni, cik oii.. aku habaq mai..aku nak mtk map la eh ataih apa yg telanjuq.. tp sumpah kita tak penah telanjuq apa kan kinah kan? Haha;D sayang hang kinah..!

Then cik Reha khairani, orang ke Tiga Belas.. ( anda yg mengaku ya?!) .Rey.. atau Mas-Nor-Reyha.. atau nama samaran ketika menyamar jd gf james bond, reha khairina.. saya phm perasaan manjadi insan ke-13 yg insane.. sgt istimewa.. ko kn adik bongsu kami secara practical dan literally-nya.. standard la adik bungsu kena buli..ye dok?! Ape kes akak2 sulung seperti aku, ana, kinah ngn nodo kena buli.. nanti kena black-list ooo dgn persatuan along2 seDunia.. tak boley..tak boley ..!

The emotional drama queen of the year, tht hv always make my day , Cik Sulaim Sulaimah Aqbaa – wp0wn aku ngn reha da request 7 kali mengenai identity aqbaa.. hingga detik ini kamu masih tidak mahu me-reveal-nya. Sunnguh la kamu ini.. batu besar itu kepala ada duduk. Namun, kerana kamu ratu hatiku, aku nk mintak maap la.. wahai teman tidur di sebelah kananku.. ( readers..plz hv a clean mind okey?!) kot2 la aku ade tetarik selimut ko dan ko secara tidak sengajenye berada dlm kesejukan di hening subuh dan kau berusaha tarik semula selimut itu namun hampa kerana aku telah mengepitnya dgn kejap di dalam pelukku. Maaf ya?! Len kali aku amek selimut ko, ko amek la selimut aku..ya?!

And the dearest permysury of the house of 27 , me! Cik Shazwani Amalina Sudirman !- well..its a self-explainatory.. the permysury? The queen? Got it? Haha .. lu piker la sendiri..

Ddk di depan ( l to r )

Si panjang dan manja yg gemar memenifestasikan kebungsu-an yg nyata.. , cik Shaffy Fizah . tp mak aih, muka innocent gile dlm ini gambar ! weih, cik kucing! Pengadaptasian nyata dari seekor kucing, cubby, gatal dan manja..but covered with the innocent face.. haha;D anda mmg s0methng la cik kucing.. tho.. u r a nice person.. ya..? mengerti ya? Ini bukan omongan kosong atau ampuan percuma.. cepat belanje aku kfc!

Next to her, is the most unreasonably qualified best actress of the year, my partner in the drama crime field sponsored by the government of official statically heart-less actor. Miss Raihan Yai Yout! Yout, sudah-sudahlah muka innocent dlm photo, anda sungguh sukar untuk ku mengertikan! Gadis with 1001 watak dalaman dan luaran. kamu bagaimana sih?! Capek aku memikirkannya! Anda sungguh luar biasa, kok! Percuma saja aku membahasakan identity mu yg tidak identifik.. perhubungan mutual kita sy harap tidak sekadar behenti di drama2 lakonan kita aja ya?! Mahupun di saat aku menjadi penumpang kehormat motor mu yg wah..asik..sekali ada alarm..ketika mahu ke library! Ampun ya segala! Halal ya gas motor itu!

The back to nature, organic-practice-in living-routine , cik Huda Hud Yusoff..peneman tidurku sebelah kiri ..- koya la ko beb! Kate nk merempit pg amcorp mall cari buku kat excess book tuh.. aku nk xm nih.. ko tu da la keje skunk..ble la gamaknye aku nk merempit ngn ko lg nih.. tp blek raye ari tuh, aku ad bwk buku sophie kinsela tue just for you..nt mtk eh? Hari tu lupe plak nak bgtaw.. ps: beb, im glad u’re not moving nex sem.. nt x la ilang pengacau tdo aku.. ala aku taw ko ske kacau aku tyme aku tdo..aku je mls nk layan..haha..gotcha!

House of 27 domestic Goddes.. the sulung of the akak2 sulung in the house, Cik Syazana Ana - Ko mmg Dewi la Ana.. ko nih da nearly perfect taw.. pandai masak..pandai kemas rumah..pandai jaga kitorg.. tue yg jadiknye birthday ko 3 kali sambut tuh.. dapat tak ko rase kasih-sayang kitorg nih sampai kat ko.. wahai emak kepada upin dan ipin dan supplier cte kekasihku seru?! Dapat tak?! Itu la ana.. nt bile ko da berumur lanjut dari 22 tahun dan kalau ko pg mane2 dan kau rase da bayu menyapa lembut bahu kau.. itulah hembusan kasih syg kitorg..haha’D chiky ke corny..haha;D

Akak muke ketat with deadly- serious don’t-mess-with-me-face..the Sabahan hot to go , Cik Yanti Yan Taty- Kenak kitak?! Kamik sik faham kitak nie..Oppss..sory..tu saghawak..ko gk yg ajr.. napa ko bah?! Makan sudah, ko? Aku okey jak sini.. ceh~~ sajer jer nak test skill speaking sabah kat sini.. hey..i know la tis girl..yg cold heartless muke sombong what-do-i-care nih.. mne de cold.. die sgt warm and friendly and nice once u know her.. kite da kenal lame kan yan kan? Ko oke jak bah.. persetan ape org laen mau kata.. sorry for everything ya?! And thanx for the care and concern..Sayang kamu!

Duduk sedikit depan

Last but not least, the super duper dedicated financial guardant of 27 and the queen of concern the bongsu-way, Cik Wan Sab Sal- Weih, wan.. sewa bulan nih kasi aku discount 50% keh..? coz I am about to mengampu ko tahap petala ke lapan nih..hingga ko sebgi pure math student p0wn akan gagal untuk membuat perbezaan ke atasnya. Here goes.. Cik wan yg aku kenal nih.. memanglah sgt manja sebenrnya—( remember wan tatkala kes cik U masuk ke istana kita? Hehe..<- gelak jahat).. dan sebenarnya dia nih buka ske nag.. tp concern n curiuos..tu jer kan wan kan? Apa la depa nie.. pastu wan pandai buat kuih raye.. biskut de sedap and crunchy..! pandai jahit baju kurung… pandai drive.. pendek kate dah qualified enough lah! Iyo tak wan oii..esok ekau balek kampong ko kat soromban tuh, ko bawakan ese buah rombutan lagi yo..?! maap yo wan yo ataih segalo salah silap telambat baya sewo..yo? yo? yo? :D

Well, whatever it is.. honestly stating here, that aku seronok satu rumah ngn korg sume.. kepala otak sume boley layan. Hopefully kita dapat la sambong kontrak rumah tuh ek and sambong balek ke-best-an idop bersama for the next 6 months.. love u guys, cheer and chill! And may Allah bless u guys, my dear thirteen angels : Nodo, ijah, is, kinah, reha , su, fiza, yai , huda, ana , yanti and wan !

Sangatlah tidak dapat dimergertikan oleh akal

Mengapa begitu?!

Anda sungguh hebat di mata saya wahai harun yahya.. bijak!

How can I say tis..

Juz now, aku bru jer habes bace tis book by my fav writer la itu harun yahya whom amazed me so damn much.. ( opss..mind the language..heh;D) .

(ohh.. ps: the book is never plead ignorance by harun yahya)

Then ini mamat telah menulis sesuatu yang biasanya disangkal oleh golongn materialist .. well actually he has always does.. so as to say.. b4 aku berlanjutan dalam menulis what I may think is true.. let me like beri sedikit explaination pasal ini golongan materialist.. mereka adalah golongan pemikir yang beroreantasikan teori bahawa semua benda terjadi secara sendirinya. . menolak sepenuhnya bahawa wujudnya Pencipta yang menciptakan setiap isi langit dan bumi..iaitu ALLAH azza wajalla .

Well , basically they’re all from Charles Darwin side.. u know Charles Darwin kan? Yg bg teori manusia dari beruk itu.. they’re all basically into evolution. Stating that manusia dari beruk , burung dari dinosaurs..all the reptiles are from the fish origin, stating that when the fish da bosan hidup kat laut, mereka menjejak ke bumi dan berevolusi.

With all due respect ..

Don’t you think they all are crapping?! I mean.. crapping yg mengarut gile! Don’t you think? Reptiles dari ikan?

Huh~!

Gila mereka ini..

Now let consider tis for a moment. What happen if one day, fish tetibe da bosan idup kat laut, then they decide to pass onto the land la konon2 mencari rezeki yg laen pula?
Do fish, gradually approaching the coast and reach the sand hv a chance of survival?
The answer is clear..hello?!! they all will soon mati la ayo!

Here are some pts i can thnk off ..( ye ke pikir sendiri..tp boley la..i mean..ade gk la yg rompak dari buku tuh..)

1. Carrying weight – land-dwelliing creature including us as human being us up to 40% of our energy just to carry our body. Whereas sea-dwelling creature hv no prob carrying their weight bcoz of all forces and pressure balancing

2. Retention of heat – land dwelling creature hv bodily mechanism that can withstand great temperature fluctuation, but in sea, temperature change gradually and tak occur witin a wide range

3. Use of water – essential for metabolism. Therefore my dear, the water and moisture need to be use in restriction manner as theres soo limited source of good water on land. For eg skin is designed to permit the loss of water to a certain extent-oso to prevent excessive evaporation. Land creature hv a sense of thirst , s0methng yg ikan xde.. got it? Ikan? Haus?

4. Kidney – to tapis discharges waste . ikan mane ade kidney ooii..! adoyai! There’s plenty of water in the sea la oii.. direct filtration je la..

5. Respiratory system – fish gune insang.. land creature mostly pakai lung.. then how from insang nk evolve jadik lung.. can arr?!

Got it you guys?!! There are more but it’ll definitely later fill up my blogs and entries pjg sangat nanti bosan pula..

For more, just google up for Harun Yahya..

Till then..

Wallahu a’lam..

“they said ‘Glory be to You! We have no knowledge except what You have taught us. You are the All-Knowing, the All-Wise – Surah Albaqarah ; 32)”

Life’s mischievous – The bus ride.

Hi! Its been a while ( maybe a-long-time-ago..a very-very-long time ago) since my last post. Its not that, nothing special had occurred in my precious boisterous life, seriously lots of good stuff had occurred. Like for now, im staying off-campus instead of in-campus like for the past 3 years. And, guess what? I had fun! Tones of them! Basically, here, im surrounded by most of my friends that Ive known for the past 4 years of my stayed. Right down from Pasum till now. There are others that are new to me, though, but they’re all great.

What kinda fun? Well, I cant really explained it. It’s a feel of being more responsible of yourself and try to think like an adult regardless the toughness experience living outside campus and knowing that you need to fight for survival

Fight for survival… sounded tough kan? Cam poyo jer..but seriously, no joke here..

Especially when it come to this little hard task called the adventure of the bus ride , specifically tyme BEREBUT NAK NAIK BAS.. definitely a real life survival task y’know! Especially time nak pg lecture pagi-pagi and time nak balek kelas petang2.. ohh.. you really don’t hv the idea how hard it is.

Well, some people cant see this in a true eye, for basically they don’t really experience it like we do!

Okey, how hard can berebut naik bas be.

Let me drag you in this situation.

Its Ramadan. And I just finish my late evening class at sharp 6 o’clock. The watch now is showing 6.30pm. Means my precious 30 minutes had gone just like that. Dah la makanan berbuka belum beli lagi. Hurm..its sure is menguji kesabaran. Its not that the bus are late or somewhat, but the buses are really filled and packed. Like a packed packed! definitely you have seen one right? So, I’m so not going to kill my self by standing at the edge of the bus just to go home. It’s a big no-no to me, definitely. But to my insanity, im still stuck in the campus , like in the very moment . I AM STILL HERE and the jam is pointing 632pm . Just great! SAYA BELUM BELI MAKANAN BERBUKA LAGI!
The greatest great thing ever!

Few minute later, a bus came by. Oh..thank God! So, hundreds of black and white ( its only a skin deep , people.. no hurts feeling.. plz..) people are standing un-Q-ed, for course like Malaysian always do. Menanti dengan penuh debar. With the feeling of adakah-sy-akan-masuk-atau-saya-terpaksa-tunggu-lagi. Yea! Llike that’s going to happen. I wll, this time make a very sure of my self that I am definitely going to get onto this bus. So, I stand firmly on the side of the bus, where it’s an easy way to get in because, kat tepi org tak ramai. Sometime I do, don’t get it why do people want to stand in the middle, susah weih nak masuk because people for the side will tolak ko ke tepi. Get it? You, guys?

With all the strength left from the Ramadan , and the skilled that hv developed since junior high school , I managed to get in the bus! Yeay!! Tapi tak dapat duduk la..kan? dah dapat naik pun dah syukur. Saya terus bergerak ke belakang, sebab saya tahu ramai lagi yang nak naik. Dan saya tak mahu menjadi seorg yg selfish. Macam saya seorg yang nak naik. Tapi malangnya, org belakang saya tak mahu ke belakang. Hee.. mnarah betul saya. Pentingkan diri betul. Cuba kalau awak ynag berada di luar bus sekarang, ramai lagi. Mesti awak akan marah kan kalau org belakang tak nak pegi belakang. Sebab banyak empty spaces.

“Erm, cik boley tolong pg belakang sikit tak? “

Akhirnya dapat jugak saya ckp.

“kalau awak nak pergi, awak pergi la” seraya itu, dia menginjak sedikit seperti memberi saya ruang untuk berjalan.

I was like, ‘WHAT!!!!!!!’

Mai aih.. tak perlu kowt, takut tak dapat turun.

UN-BELIVEABLE!

Maka saya pun mengijak. Maka dapat la a few people more masuk bus..

Kat situ kite boley belajar satu perkara mengenai hidup, that PEOPLE LIVE FOR THEMSELVES. MANUSIA HIDUP UNTUK DIRI SENDIRI.

True, right? Nobody ever said that hidup itu adil, where u are ought to fight to get in the bus maybe only a crap example, but it magnify the world, kan?

Okey, so now the bus move. Great, right? The bus is moving . Lega skit.. in 10 minutes time sampai la aku kat umah nih.. sempat lagi kalu beli nasi bungkus dekat simpang.Sreronoknya!

After a few yard away from the bust stop tadi.. guess what?

Jalan jam pulak..

Dekat I kilometer gak la panjang de.. Astagfirullah al adzhim..

Memnag menguji ketahanan mental dan fizikal bulan2 pose nih..akhirnya, jam 7 da sepuluh minet jugak la aku sampai rumah. Thank God, one of my housemiey masak.. so bley la tumpang rezeki org..

That is one tiny part of having a bus ride, and it is just one of the part where teach us that life isn’t always a bed of roses. Sometimes you need to do what you need to do to achieve things. Sometimes, in order to do that u sacrifices other people. Your friends, your family sometimes you even have to sacrifices yourself.

An easy example apabila kita dapat tawaran untuk sambong study di tempat yang jauh. Kita korbankan banyak benda kan? Kita korbankan duit mak ayah kita, kita korbankan masa kita bersama keluarga, sebab belajar jauh susah nak balek selalu.. kita korbankan tv ( ini yg paling pyh nih..) , kita korbankan ayam dan kambing ( sebab ade certain2 keluarga, bila anak dapat sambong belajar, diorg buat kenduri kesyukuran) and etc etc ..

Ye..ye saye tau! Contoh di atas tidaklah begitu murni.. tapi memadailah.. saya kira kalian tahu maksud saya bukan..<-- perghh tetiba ckp nak karisma..kan?

Till then..

Apa jasa kita untuk mereka?

for this semester, im taking tis course of Pendidikan kanak-kanak berkeperluan khas.

At first, aku tak lah pikir ape2 sgt.. just take the klas for the sake of to fulfil my complussory couse.. subject luar faculty.. Kalau tak amik tak boley grad pulak nanti..
so as to say..
aku pon pg la kelas tersebut..
bersendirian..
dok sorang2 kat belakang..
everything was fine with me..
until the lecturer came and have her lecture.. that was also fine with me.. until she give the assigment that
we, the student have to form a group..

also fine with me..
so, i just enter a group.. consist of me, pia, dila, ho and zila..
perfect!

so the assg is to go to a place or association that uphold or memperjuangkan nasib kanak2 kurang upaya.. hurm.. basically its not that memperjuangkan lah.. its more to a place to help these poor people to fight for their live , to enable them to berdiri di atas kaki sendiri..

so, we choose to go to SMK Bangsar..
Here , is an arus perdana school that have a special programme for this kinda people..

at my very ist visit..
we just mingle with the student..
i know Taib, Satiya, Aimi, Haiqal , then ariff and Syuhada..
Taib n Satiya are slow learners, Haiqal deaf, Aimi and Syuhada Down syndrom..

At first.. honestly..
aku agak takut dengan diorg especially the DS children.. then look freakingly freak with such distictive faces and the act of reserved and emotionally unstable..

but after mingling.. borak2 sket.. and we prompt them to speak..
be nice..
be a suoper duper cool sister to them instead of being a total ass stranger

they're kinda cute..
and nice..
they're nice people..
diorg..org2 yang manja..
kaalau nak cakap dengan diorg.. kena amik perhatian.. and kalau diorg nak borak dengan kite
diorg akan pastikan kita punye mata adalah memandang mereka..
kita panggil..

"Aimi.."
nanti diorg cakap..
"What ainul.."

kalau korg tgk die cakp time tu..
mmg comel giler!
ahaks..

later.last friday.. aku pg lagi.. tis time diorg ade event..
sambut merdeka..
kitorg join skali..
meriah!
lame da tak sambut macam nie..
lama da rupanye aku tinggal sekolah.. sampai lupa kemeriahan bersekolah..

kitorg 4 org dok kat belakang sekali..
betul2 belakang these special studens..

during the events..
a Down Syndrom, boys acts catch my eyes

He was very bersemangat .. and very responsive to the event compared to all his colleagues..
kejap2 dia kibar bendera..kejap2 kibar bendera..seronok betul dia..
seolah2 dia memang sangat menikmati kemeriahan majlis tersebut macam org sempurna laen..
padahal aku boley bet.. die tak paham ape2 p0n.. dia cuma seronok tgk org laen seronok..

then, during the last event..
we ought to sing some patriotik songs like KeranaMu Malaysia, Jalur Gemilang..
tetibe cam seronok pulak nyanyi nih..
never have i feel tis keseronokan menyanyikan lagu patriotik..
but u konw what..
during the singing..
there's this normal boy.. orr.. nope..not normal arus perdana boy.. ( bcoz, im not sure how normal they're...ahaks!)

aku tak tau ape ynag budak normal nih cakap kat die .. sapmai die menagamuk..
out of sudden.. budak ni marah2..
merah2 muka die..
semua org bergerak jauh dar dia..seolah2 dia akan bunuh org lepas nih..
tehn all of sudden, dia duduk dan..

dia nangis..

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hurm..
nape nak buat dia nangis?
kenapa kita tak boleh bagi die room to have the same feeling as we do?
why couldnt you just leave him alone!
why do you have to hurt his feeling..
he just wanted to have some fun.. that might be he not usually have..
why do you really have to do that?

hee..marah betul aku..
dia nak sambut hari kemerdekaan.. ape salahnye..
yg bagi aku hangin tu.. bdk yg buat die marah tuh..
bknnnyer bagi pot sgt kat event tuh... dengki la tuh bdk tuh suka sambut merdeka..
sunnguh la aku marah.


these people are special people..
hence, they're need special treat , special understanding, special penumpuan.. special learning skills,
they need us, the so-called normal people so that they can believe in themselve..
thjey need to believe that they are welcome in the society..
they're not mean people.. they're nice people..
we are the one who is mean..
we neglect them.. we a bundent them.. we treat them as a second class people..

why should we?
what give us the right to labelled them as a second class people..
what make us first?

ingatlah semua insan di muka bumi ini adalah sama di sisi Allah..
yang membezakan kita semua adalah keimanan a=dan ketaqwaan..

-XOXO,
hugs and kisses..Fi Sabillilah

Ramadan the FORTH

Assalamualaikum..

Selamat menyambut Ramadan !

Semoga Ramadan tahun ini adalah lebih baik bagiku dari Ramadan2 ku yang lepas-lepas..
InsyaALLAH..
Semoga ALLAH memerima amlan kita.. dan semoga seluruh umat islam di dunia khususnya di Malaysia sentiasa di dalam lindungan ALLAH..
Semoga ibu dab ayah saya sentiasa dalam keadaan tenang dan murah rezeki..
Amiin...

Hari ini adalah hari keempat umat islam menyambut Ramadan..
dan aku belom lagi sempat menunaikannya..
biasalah perempuan..
Allah bagi cuti..

tapi moga2 aku dapat sepuluh malam yang terakhir tu..
manalah tahu rezeki aku kali ini..
dapat malam lailatul Qadar..
insyaALLAH..-

be seriuos? i am seriuos..

salam ala'ik..

if u happen to notice..
all my prior blog have been completely rub-bish in term of..
hello! i am a finale year student..
a 22 year old i-am-not- a-girl-not-yet-a-women lady..
so, by tyme goes by.. i have to have my own opinion on things kan?

all my previous blog is just a type of emotionally attached ( as all the ladies always do, attaching emotion on all course)... but the truth is..

hello, i am a 22 years ols not-a-girl-not-yet-a-women type of lady..
so im still learning..and what wrote earlier is a apart of it..
learning.. is experiencing.. and having bad experience is the best teacher to teach you what life is..
life is not always a bed of roses..dont they?

"by tis experiment, i found i way to light a bulb, but i found 1000 ways how not to light it"
- thomas edison

see, how bad experience teaches you..and they are some wisdom word that highlight that , experience means having a failure.. cause thru failure you learn to succeed.. they you go..
am i right or am i right?
ahah!
gotcha!

well, of cause, actually i really need to voice out something really i a way, HARDTALK issues la kan?
i agree in a way.. maybe next blog ill do that.. i search for an issue and we can discussed it together..
any topic will do aite?
heavy issues like poticala stuff that's somehow emerging unrationally unstable nowadays.. oalso we can talk about fiqah , tauhid , sirah and akhlak seriuosly.. and setakat mana pengetahuan la kan?
bukankah ilmu itu perlu dikongsi walaupun hanya sebaris ayat, aite?
history?
can do.. tho xde la hardcore favourite subject back there during school years.. but still without history .. rakyat malaysia akan cepat lupa diri.. Melayu Mudah Lupa.. you know what, some how i find these words are true..

anything..
sometimes, you also can drop the subject and we can discussed it..
always welcome to share your thought with me..

great mind discussed great ideas..dont they?
and we are all great!

well,
till we met again..
may Allah Bless seluruh rakyat Malaysia!

-XOXO
hugs and kisses, Fi Sabilillah..

and at last..it reach its end..

salam..
its me again..
yea..
of coz..
what am i expecting kan..?
haha..silly me..
nothing much to write tho..
suprisingly..coz im a bit of a hardcore in writing stuff
i like to write alot but then am afraid of overtelling it..
it might hurt someone or something..

nway.. reason of blogging.. am to tell u that
ive already submitted my thesis on 12th may 2008..
pheww~~
atlast..the feeling is overwelhming..
haha..
its like u huge gigantic stone that hv been occupying ur shoulder for the past century
have been broken into bit pieces and its over!
but honestly..im bit incontent with the thesis ive been working for the past one yr..
from the very begining of the fieldwork right thru the benchwork..
am not 100 percent-ly puas hati..
bcoz of the fact that, the environment and the colleagues and staff ive been working with are not very satisfying .. make me unhappy while working and doing my job..
one part of it..
plus, maybe.. hurm.. until now.. saya masih tidak puas hati dengan akak ITU..
i still do not noe wat i do wrong..
that i'd been punished unrationally..
so sad taw..and very disappointed..
why la we have this kind of people in tis world..
maybe back to me.. i've already do some like ..melihat ke masa lampau apa yg saya sudah buat
da..ade la.. this one suspected thing.. and i have already mintak maaf..and dia cam dah maafkan saya.. tapi after a week later.. die buat perangai balek..saya kecik hati tau.. kalu saya buat salah..
bagi tahu saya.. saya boleh terima.. dan kalau saya tak boleh terima..beri saya masa..
akhirnya saya akan belajar terima sikit-sikit..sooo...very the misunderstanding and miscomunication problem la we have.. and yet.. id already try to talk to her.. but she just wont listen.. she doesnt even want to see me..
then wat else shud i do..
beg for her forgiveness..
again?
yeay la..kirim salam selamat jalan la kat anda kan..?
anda kecik kan hati sy..zaman bile plak nak mintak maaf.. don think tak u're an adult than the blame is on me totally..
ye la tu..
you wish..!

itu one part of the thingy la yang buat saya tak happy sepnjg membuat thesis..
hardtime you noe..
im in stress most of the tyme..
sket lagi nak schizo..sebab kejap2 pk mane nak settle masalah thesis..
mane nak study for xm.. but still this kinda hectic situation have tod me alot..
like:
1-do not rely on people..they're unreliable most of the tyme..
2-every dugaan..dan when kite tangani than dugaan with full kesabaran.. meminta pertolongan dan berserah kepada Allah.. insya-Allah..akan ade ganjaran dari kesabaran itu..im not intended to riak.. but ALhamdulilah my GPA for this semester is 3.5 alhamdulilah..the first tyme ever i got this good result..usually pointer aku stok lepas 3 sipi2 jer..and pointer itu dikira tidak termasuk grade thesis..kalo thesis saya ade rezeki dapat A.. insya-Allah pointer sy sem ini 3.65.. kalian doakan lah yer....so sy amek ini sebagai ganjaran Allah murahkan rezeki saya sem ini..
3- when u hv like a chaotic schedule .. u just have to focused one thing at a tyme.. and insya-Allah u'll be suprised how gud u r in handling the hectic situation..
i take those thing at the bright site..
;)

so, itulah dia.. perjalanan thesis sy yang panjang.. macam2 berlaku.. puas saya menanges.. puas juga saya tersenyum..
dengan izin Allah..tersubmit jugak thesis bertuah itu..
haha;D
life is an open secret..
treasure it and live with it in the name of ALLAH..
la tahzan inna'Allaha ma'anan..
do not be sad.. for Allah is with u..

finally..its over!

hi..

salam ala'ik to everyone



me again..

of coz.

wat do u expect..



well.

nothning much to sate here..

but this one thing.



finally..my thesis is over..

boley tak ..?

boley tak kalo aku cari artikel pasal pisang bley tak kalo ade?
penat tahu nak kuar masok web
bukannyer bes dok depan pc nih..
sakit bahu..
sakit mata
sakit hati..!!
penat!!
da la org yg bertanggungjawab
taknak tolong..
terkapai-kapai aku kat sini..
skunk da bulan tige..
nak mintak data p0n cm nak minta
sejuta hingget..
payah!
ble nak jumpe tak nak pulak..
tak de la
bz la..
penat tahu tgu..
skunk da bln 3..
result tak analyse lagih..
karang aku jugak yg terkebil2 tgh malam bute siapkan thesis..
penat!penat
penat!

i wanna go back home..

really..
miss my home
so much..

but then, the unability to go back
is reasoned by the fact that
ibu dan ayah saya dan adik saya
tak ade kat umah..
diorg balek melake pule..
sedey..
sedey..

la nih
mmg arr aku tgh buhsan
tahap tak mampu nak ingt..
bosan gle..
nak kuar
semalam da abes kuar da..
siap lepak tdok blek tqa lagih..

hish..!!

camne nie..
nak balek..

kang nih ade yang bwat keje gle balik
melaka ari sabtu
like last week..
mmg gamble gle..
g pudu..
tawakal jer ade tiket ke tak..
alhamdullilah ade..
pkol 7 tapi..
kalo bwat lagi
jama' ta'yah lagi arr
namenyer..

hish!!
potassium cyanide btol ah!
hurm..
hurm..
hurm..
nak balek..tak nak..
nak balek..tak nak..
tik tok tik tok..

balek jer arr..!!

Genpet DOES NOT exIst?

i am so pissed!!

okey..
not that marah-marah type..
but more into marah-dissapointed type..
it is this thingy called

the genpet..

it is claimed to be the so-called living toy..

it is breathing..
its got waste..
it'll bleed when cut..
and etc..
it is claimed to have been inserted by human-gene by
the zygote microinjection method..
yeah-right!
ive done like a zillions of reading bout this stupid thing..
and ive even emailed the authorized people.. THE BIOGENICA to make few clear question answered..

but then..
i'd stumbled upon one of this web..
its snopes.com..
an urben legend reference pages..
and it state that the thingy by the name genpet is only a fake..!
it is merely a plastic and latex sculpture..

stupis elephant!

i dont just only believed you..
i have actually
purposely pick this stupid thing to be
presented for my topik khas under the topic transgenic animal..
stupid-stupid-stupid
idiot-little-devil-evil-cruel de ville-..
whatever..!

enough said!

p/s;
if you are interested to know bout this fake life time so-called toy thingy
its in the www.genpet.com
check out for yourself
be amaze and be disappointed at once!

what the heck! just write!

first attempt in writiing this blog..
since ive been having it like last year kot..

but then, tend to forgot bout it already..
been extremely bz..
with all those final year stupid stuffs..
project benchwork..
everlasting assignment.,lab report..
tests.. notes..
bla bla and bla.

whatever it is..
life is still go on..
while i can breathe..
i'll move..
tho.. step by step..


Aja !!